Saturday, October 15, 2005
{ 7:02 AM }
heyys ppl, i promise i'll not be a pessimistic person animore. i mean..i'll try. but i dunt gurantee okies? i mean..i dunt wanna continue being pessimistic yeas? cuz it's like i vv pessmistic rytes? sumtyms it's like sho sick, make me feel like johnny cade like tt, sucidal. haiz..cant see the goodness in life though. maybe when i see it, i'll b a betta person? hard to say yea. okies, a whole new mi. no longer the pessimistic theodora, but the new new optimistic theodora. put your hands together to welcum me. the new me. hahaas. but at times, i'll forget tt i'm suppose to b optimistic, n i'll start my pessimistic storiee..life's miserable and stuffs like this. i'm optimistic about life. it brings hope n i hav faith in it. yap, this is my philosophy of life. meowth, tt's right(: heheex. remind me if i dare start all this stupid things again. to all the people who stood by me whenever i'm down: thank you so much for being there when i needed u all the most. to someone who i shouted at during break time: sorrie for throwing my tantrum at u ytd. hahaas..i guess u've known it. nth gold cn stay, n bcuz nth gold cn stay, we should treasure all the nice things ard us b4 they r gone. i knew it frm the start, i knew it. i juz chose to ignore it. i'm runnig away, trying to numb myself. trying to lie to myself. i cant tao2 bi4 foreva rights? i've to face it one day n i tink, this day haf cum. i'm not prepared. i lack courage. learning to stay strong. i'm worried i cant take it, i'll fall. i'll not drown myself n willow in self pity. neva, neva again. i've gotten over it n will hope for the betta. 8lit, here i cum!